Last night there was another dream. This time I was paintballing, which would be odd except that my friends and I have long standing plans to go this weekend. This dream stood out due to the changes in surroundings. I would take cover behind an object, and it would either disappear or diminish until I was within the enemy sights. There would also be large scale alterations, such as that north and south would suddenly change orientation (how in the dream I was sure of this I do not know, only that I was indeed aware of it), or there would suddenly be a creek and some trees as part of the course where there were not before. Strangely enough, I do not believe that anyone involved in the game was someone I knew, or at least no one I could put a name to.
Before hitting publish on this post I have come back to look at it a few days latter, and what really stand out to me is the memory recall just from reading the paragraph above. A few hours after I had the dream I couldn't remember any of the details, but from the description of it there are very distinct memories that return. I know that the game of paintball was held in Miadu Park, which is near to where I used to live in California. I also know that I had the classic trouble with movement that is experienced in dreams, which is I guess ironic because it turned out to be really muddy when we actually went paintballing, and impossible to to move anywhere.
Well there is certainly a theme in my dreams of reverting to places or activities of my childhood. Again, the disappearing cover represents a perceived lack of agency, a long with changing cardinal directions and scenery. According to these dreams I am officially a mess and need to take control of the events in my life. Also, I need to stop reminiscing on the past an pay more attention to the present.
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